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I Don’t Know What I Want–Or Do I?

What do you want? 

You’d think it would be easy to answer, but in fact the most common reply I hear when I ask it is, “I don’t know.”

Some people feel like it’s selfish to consider their own desires and it makes them feel ashamed.  Since they were children, they were told how others are so much less fortunate than they are, that they should be grateful for what they have and not complain.  Instead, they should focus on the needs (or demands) of others. 

All their lives they’ve been asking a different question:

“What do others want from me?”

FullSizeRender (1)To them, their own desires are less important than everyone else’s. So they mash their own wishes into a hidden compartment of the heart and try to care only for others. 

But in that hidden, often silent place, there’s a flickering hope that people will be grateful for all their sacrifice.  Somehow, someday, they’ll be rewarded if they try hard enough to please/help/save others.  And if they haven’t been rewarded, it’s because they haven’t tried hard enough or long enough.  And besides they shouldn’t be selfish anyway.  

Am I talking to you? Are you getting tired? How long will you wait to start taking care of yourself?  How empty do you need to be? How sick will you let yourself get?  

And how does your being miserable help anyone? 

I’m asking you to summon some courage  and consider the question:

What do you want?

 

Contact me if you’d like to talk about it.  

407-988-4283

damercerlife@gmail.com

 

Photos by Sylvia Kirkendoll Mercer

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